MP3: Need New Body - Gamble On

MP3: Simian - One Dimension

MP3: Circulatory System - The Lovely Universe

i used to put these tracks on mix cds together. those are lost times, these are like lost songs and i never would have thought that only six years after hearing these songs i’d be listening back to them with this kind of teary nostalgia for old times, twisting in the space where i imagine my ‘heart’, making me uncomfortable and at the same time ecstastic. discovering these songs again after all this time, is like the ghost of a dead loved one appearing, speaking. or, less dramatic, like seeing a photo of a fun time you’d forgotten even having. when memories have been gone for a long time, they feel very strange when they come back. and the disconnect between hearing these songs now and the memories of hearing them then - do i feel weird because i’ve changed so much or changed so little? too hard to figure out.

ITS GETTING TOO REAL